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Sometimes life is unexpected, there's unexpected event, unexpected issues, like my resent event, is the least I would expect could happen.

I have so much trust on us, believing that my hard work will pay off, my perseverance will have return one day. However, it happened...and unexpectedly, happened twice in a year. And still, I kept faith in you, after so much hurtful events.

Another unexpected one is the people who will come across your life during your down time, the things they said, the lesson they though you, and the advise from the wise ones.

It's so damn true. Once I asked one of my friend who is from India, she married to the husband through arranged marriage.

'How can you marry a person who you barely know?'
'Most of us get married through arrange marriage have a happy marriage. Take a look at the couples who gotten married after dating for years. How many of them lasted? And how many of them divorced? 

It's so damn true.

(Copied from 丽燕 in FB, all credit goes to her, this is too good not to be shared)
 

人的感情，实在是一种难以驾驭与掌控的感知。
以前人家盲婚哑嫁，说的是感情可以慢慢培养，日久可以逐渐生情；现在大家自由恋爱，最后却是渐行渐远，不见来时路。
孟庭苇有一首歌是这样的：「我们已走得太远，已没有话题，只好对你说：你看，你看，月亮的脸偷偷地在改变〜」
我一直很喜欢这首歌这个chorus，但是，一段感情要用月亮作为完结，虽然凄迷却很可悲，我不喜欢这个画面。
最近见到身边的人都被情爱困住，有感而发。
感情事没有对错之分，局内人尚且看不清，更何况是局外人。我只能说，已经无法挽回的情，真的不必再频频回首。最好连手都不挥，拎起美好回忆快步离去。破镜重圆不是没有，但是，如果那面镜子照得自己都不认得了，又是何苦？
人家没有隐瞒没有欺骗没有欲断还留没有拉着你纠缠不放，已是大幸，应该向人家鞠躬行礼握手道谢，人家没有陷你于万劫不复之地。
世间任何事物任何感情，有企望便可能失望。如果要去到祈望与乞求如斯地步，或许应该认真检讨究竟值不值得如此低下。
没有知己，请学会与心灵对话；没有爱人，请更要自爱自强。
不服气要报复？
不要酗酒用毒寻一夜情找替代感情，那是最低层次、最作贱自己的报复方式。
自古以来，最强的报复方式便是「活得比跟他在一起时更好」！

I don't know her much, just met once during an orchestra concert. I knew that she's a very knowledgeable lady, have very deep thoughts, didn't know one fine day her words will touch me.

 She have a strong character, unlike how she look like, obedient and quiet. She have so much courage, and she stand firm on what she think is right. No one can bully her because she's the master of her own will.

I admire that.

I accidentally flipped through the pictures I gotten that day. One day before white valentines day on the first incident.
The picture captured my attention and I can't carry on my work anymore. Everything flashed back in my head, and I can remember the night I spent in my own room, without anyone, alone....and I have to look at the shattered trust I once had. 

Painful? no..
Hurt? was hurt...now is more like questioning myself, what have I done wrong in the past?

Too confident?
I got the price to pay now, I have no confident now and I don't know whether carrying confident is right, or wrong.

Cocky = Confident = Bossy= Fierce= you are so not lovable.

It's going to end soon, year 2012, the painful yet memorable year.

If tomorrow ever come, I hope I can define myself once again, how am I suppose to behave. 

I already screwed my career, I can't afford to lose anything anymore.

没有爱人，请更要自爱自强。