Monday, October 31, 2016
Most of our fav month is always birthday month.
October has been great, don't be fooled by the picture. This is irrelevant to Oct.
I got so much love, so much birthday greetings, so many present I unexpected, so many celebrations I can't even be thankful enough.
October has been great, although, I missed my target, AGAIN.
I believe the toughest part of my job is to face hater.
I tried my best to be the nicest person you know, your friend, your advisor when you don't have clue, your helper and your trusted one.
But always, there's hater within internal and external. And the part I hate the most is to keep going back to them like an ex girlfriend, hoping for forgiveness and love.
Hoping them will love me back.
That's life right?
Despite how much I do or how little I do, haters gonna hate.
Hello friend, who hurts me.
I will not blame you for being distance and cold, it's a choice of life.
I choose to love you more and hopefully, you will open your heart and we be that idiot friend who talks crap and sometime intelligent talks again.
I'm grateful for those who love me, and I will love you back unconditionally.
It's blessed to feel the love, and to know that some where, these people will not leave you behind, they stand by you. They save you when you need them. They will not say no if I need help.
It feels warm actually.
Thank you god, for what I have, what I will have and what I never had.
Tuesday, October 11, 2016
People saw me at the lift and asked : HOW MANY ROUNDS OF BIRTHDAY CELEBRATIONS DID YOU HAD?
This year I had the most celebration, the most flowers, the most hugs and the most kisses I received.
For that, I thank you alll of you who love me and treat me like a lil princess on my small humble birthday.
I heart u all!
Gonna have a fantastic year ahead!
Friday, October 7, 2016
It's 12.22am now, just past my official day of turning into 29.
I must said this year is very eventful.
I have lots of ups, in career, with friends, with another half, with family.
There's lots of downs as well, I guess things need to balance up a bit. Stressed with career, fuss about friends and etc.
But I thankful for such arrangement in life. I learnt a lot, learn to be strong, and learn that I'm invincible, I can do anything I want, at least I believe so.
I see myself clearer, 29 years old me.
I like to be myself once in a while, please myself, be alone and feel secure about it.
I had massive insecurity few months ago, and to my friend who are super annoyed at my famous quote, #quarterlifecrisis.
I fear for the unknown, fear for the future, and worst is I had so much regrets which I hope to do better, but I can't turn back time. So much worry it drowns me.
I'm better now, like I said, I learnt.
I will control the future, and live every bit of it. And I feel much secure now.
It's my last 20s, and I like to experience everything! I am excited with the unknown, go for it!
To everyone whom I love, loved and loving me, thank you for the warm wishes on my small little birthday. I felt big with all your love.