Friday, June 30, 2017
Recently my brother finally has a gf, and it's amazing to observe my brother.
He used to be lazy bump who can sleep no earlier than noon every weekend without fail. He will skip breakfast and eat like there's no tomorrow for the following meals.
He's now a early bird. Will wait for the gf to wake up from sleep, and he will just wait patiently.
He used to be fat, in fact both of us are always fat kid in the family.
And now, he's barely fat, at most a M size with some decent looking muscle.
He never iron his working attire. Last time.
Now he does.
Nevertheless, all these changes are good. I see improvement in him, and amazed at how universe can change him to be someone I can't possibly imagine.
The power of age? of love? of growth?
I think from time to time I also amazed at my own changes.
I got engaged on April fool this year, in Coldplay concert, the bridge in the song of 'Fix you'.
That's the biggest change. In status.
Other than that, I used to have just flabby arms, gross soft fat tissues all around me. And I can't tolerate them, but do nothing to get rid of them.
Now I have a bit more confident, not because those fats are not there anymore, it's just because I did what I can in my comfortable level to stay healthy and fit.
I still eat happily, still indulge most of the time. But whenever I can, I'll pick up healthy eating and exercise.
I can't say I love exercising now, I still hate it. But the after feeling is good, and guilt free when I indulge. Wrong motive to workout, but...who cares :)
I somehow changed in my attitude in work. I used to care a lot about work. Now I probably care a bit more about life than work.
The changes happened to us after my engagement is also taken me aback.
I thought everything will be roughly the same, so I thought.
Indeed nothing much changes, but my husband-to-be's initiative on wedding planner amazes me.
We never spend time talking about marriage or wedding, but once he proposed, his 'wedding' mode is fully on. I'm like dating a new guy all over again.
I'm blessed that I see his commitment, with lots of initiative and effort. And I'm glad that MOST of the things we are on the same page. But we haven't even started working on it yet, so can't say for sure.
He still that very mafan boy who will complain about bodyache and itchiness ALL THE TIME, practically handicap when I'm around, but he knew how much I took care of him, and he willing to show appreciation in his own way.
He will not stingy to share his fortune with me. Nothing fancy, just by paying all my meals I feel very blessed. Not that the amount counts, some might be millionair but they won't share their fortune with another half.
He's not rich, but he's willing to share and spend on me.
Maybe that is how couple 'suppose to' behave, especially a 9 years relationship. But there's nothing is 'suppose to' happen, it's all effort and mutual understanding. It takes 2 in any form of relationship to create vibration among people, there's nothing come naturally if you are not playing your part.
No one person is 'suppose to' be there for you, if you do not give the same.
(But if you are sucker this might happen all the time.)
Although nothing much has been planned, but long before this I force my dear friend to serenade to me in my wedding. It's one of my dream to have someone serenading to me, i just use my day that I can have full control to force him to agree.
Talented person but stingy in showing off. Hate it when every time I hear him sing, it's just 1/4 of the song and the rest are gibberish. If you like to have someone ruin your song, call me.
Other than that, I'm asking a few musician to 'chip in' songs for me. It's gonna be fun i think.
I'm 30 this year. I don't feel mid life/ quarter life crisis anymore.
Partly because of my dog, I keep myself busy and have very little time to focus on negativity. She's god sent, she came to me when I'm in a mess, she pick me up from the ground.
I am blessed.