溃疡

嘴巴溃疡，心也溃疡了。
嘴里说不出好话，心里也不能压抑了。
呼。

雨天

我最爱的十二月怎么啦。。。好事呢？

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下雨了。。。而且还是一从巴士踏出来就下起倾盆大雨。
老天，不是那么幽默吧！

好，我认命。

雨越下越大，淋雨中也不那么好当。
雨水好冰。 TMD 电影都是骗人的！
为什么别人淋雨那么潇洒，我那么狼狈！
连内衣都湿透了真是的。

好不容易走进电梯，身上滴着水，脸上的妆大概也胡得七七八八了。
为了不要吓到人，我还是一本正经的，假装没事，很自在的站在电梯里。

估计后面两个男生一定是觉得我有问题。

这个时候，我只需要一把伞，和晚餐。

头疼，嘴巴溃疡。

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一流的十二月。

仙人掌也快死了，就是不舍得辜负别人把它带回来给我。
怎么办。。。

节日

佳节快来了！
浪漫的圣诞节，欢乐的跨年，喜洋洋的农历新年~
虽然，发生了一些衰过吃屎的事情，可是日子还是一样过，地球还是一样转。

参加了公司的圣诞派对。看看上面的图，难道你不认为没有拆开的礼物是最美好的吗？
花花绿绿的礼物纸，华丽丽的包装，大家都觉得包装最豪华的一定是最好的礼物。

才不是呢！

打开一看，不就是一堆不切实际的东西。
鸡肋骨，嚼之无味，弃之可惜。
到头来还不是把礼物再转送出去，或者下一年再拿出来交换。
这就是盲目的交换礼物的漏点。
哪里跑那么多有用，实际，又男女皆宜的礼物啊！

可是看见礼物堆满的时候还是很兴奋的。就是这个兴奋感还是值得的。

大家佳节都干吗呀？
单身的一定很闷，闷慌了，快快安排节目，免得佳节独自自怜。
没单身的一定预留自己的另一半，有没有节目就不得而知了。
出去，免不了就是大塞车。除非你有非凡的耐力，有多少人可以塞车可是不生气的。
不出去，就怎么都有点遗憾，总觉得要干些什么才行。

不干什么，也总要过得有意义。节日不就是为了过得有意义吗！

购物广场里的圣诞饰品都好豪华，整体上就是让你觉的无忧无虑，钱包饱满，随时可以大血拼。
实际上呢，老娘我撞了车，没有发花红，要缴倒霉到家的罚款，浪费了无数电话钱（我就是吝啬），车子要大修，还要麻烦这个，麻烦那个的帮忙我处理一些保险的事情，加上我的保险经纪不在吉隆坡，倒霉到家。
辛辛苦苦存来的钱，就这样莫名其妙的不见了。
天知道我多想痛快地买东西，辛苦存的血汗钱有多血汗。
连旅行我都不敢想，只能上网看看游记过瘾。
看着别人身上都穿着最新，最潮流的服饰，心里痒痒的还是要咬咬牙，告诉自己这些很快就过去了。
看着美美的化妆品，护肤品，天啊。。。我要钱！
我要去痛快地剪一个`很`贵的发型，很奢侈的给专人染头发，做一做很贵妇的treatment!做一个很可爱的美甲，把脚甲也做得blingbling的 (噢是虚荣，怎样！老娘就是肤浅）~



看到别的美女穿得漂漂亮亮地，妆化得美美的，全身上下穿着都是最新最流行的衣服饰品。
老娘可以不羡慕吗你说啊！往死里羡慕的说。
可是还可以自我麻醉，本小姐走的是不一样的风格。
什么风格啊，颓废风啊，成熟步入老年不打扮风吗？



倒霉了就是钱包空虚了。钱包空虚也要买礼物，也要还人情，重点是三万要还。

钱是少了，屋子还是要买。我要买买买买！！！！

TMD 屋价越来越贵，货币越来越贬。你说要多多少血汗？
女孩子的青春，就那短短几年。尤其我的青春来得迟，就那么几年。等到屋子买成了，我就只有屋子了。青春早都包二奶去了！

新的一年快来了，希望真的迎新送旧，把不好的都留下。

新年的新希望，请给我多一点耐力，带走我无止尽的欲望/给我无止尽的金钱花（拜托，选后者）。谢谢。

I'm so sorry!

Dear car car,

I still regretting over the incident happened, believe it or not.
I dunno why I can't stop you that day, donno why the car in front stopped suddenly.
Don't know why I went into this situation.

I have to pay for the price, for...not able to break on time.
Pay for summon, for car repair, for police report, for phone bills.

I promise you, I will drive more carefully.
My new year resolution is to be a better driver!

My dear car, please serve me for few more years, be my trusty car and I want to confess to you; I really like you!!!!

Love,
Your lousy owner,

on 10

I've made a serious mistake yesterday.
Made a horrible phone call and resulted my sulky mood and mom's precious tear.
I swear I'll never make her cry again, NEVER.

Really hard to express the feeling when hearing the other end with a voice with full of disappointment, it's heart breaking.
It's not as serious as you think, but I will never make the same mistake ever again, ****ing regret.

Count to 10 when angry. Don't talk when angry. Try to swallow the anger when angry.
Don't argue when the other party accusing you. Ignore the flame when heart is breaking.

To anyone of you who cannot do all the above, feel grateful for having tolerate people around you.

My mood is exactly like the weather now. Sulky.

Dcember love!

Hi All!

I'm an irresponsible person towards my blog I know sigh!
But it's December! It's a month full of love and joy!
Don't you just love December?

It's the last month of the year-- means you will have a new year, with new annual leaves, new salary (perhaps) and more public holidays which falls on SUNDAY! (you know what I mean =)

I enter to this company also on December 2009. So it's been 1 year now!
I like my job, like my colleague, and it's been a fruitful year for myself.
I always glad that I didn't have much bad experience in my work place, unlike many of my friends, undergoing unfair treatment from colleague, overstressed and OT all the time. I'm glad that I have a very reasonable superior, and colleague are kind to me.
What else can I ask for a workplace freshie? (more salary can?)

But one sad thing to conclude my year 2010.
My manager is leaving.
Mei Kuan has been very kind to us, since the day I start working here.
I learn a lot from her, and very impressed she can always have a conclusion in the shortest time, when I'm still scratching my head for an answer.
She is a decision maker, wise leader and kind person.

She's a very young lady, but she is able to lead the whole department, and continuously come out with new thing to wow us.
She have a young mind for sure, younger than me I suspect (my mental age 30). Sometimes I feel that she's very close to us, more like our age, a youngster. Fun and charismatic =)

It's the most regretful event to conclude this year.
But I thank her for giving me opportunity to learn more new things, know more about this industry. In the future I will be like my mentor, caliber and kind, caring and wise at the same time.

More parties lining up!
Where is yours?

Reminder to myself.

Three days ago I've bumped in to my ex-boss, I'm certainly happy to see him. But we don't have much time, so we just 'hi' and 'bye' and hoping we will keep in touch.

The day after, few hours before I knock off, he called and ask me for a dinner.
Of course, I'm more than happy to accept his invitation. He's a mentor for me, my inspiration and my guru in stock market.

A simple dinner, but fruitful sharing with him. He share so much with me, wanted me to follow a successful path, not to do any mistake like everyone does.
Perhaps you might imagine he's a old man with white hair, almost bald, fat and have a huge belly.

NO.

He's 32, have 1 baby boy and expecting another. Have a lovely wife and perfect marriage.
He's NOT bald, a slight 'office' tummy, tech savvy, Apple product lover.


He shares a lot of big principles to me, throughout the years what he realize and understand the meaning of being a successful person.

1) When you are spending 80% of time doing something you don't like eg: your job, spend the rest of the 20% doing something different.

2) Don't do only what you are doing, do well in what you are doing, but also outdo something else. Some thing you are interested.

3) Don't believe completely what people told you. 90% of the things are false perception, the remaining 10% is for you to find out.

4) Don't stop when you see the surface. Dig down and understand the big picture. Understand what people won't normally want to find out.

5) THINK. Think how to spend your time, do your time management, do not waste time on people who won't inspire you.

6) Think more. Think on the solution, be a calculative risk taker. Understand what people need, and what you have to offer.

7) Try updating your resume as often as possible. You MUST find something to update, else you're not improving at all. Add in one column: ACHIEVEMENT.

8) Talk to the elders. Talk to someone who is twice your age, and you must be knowledgeable enough to do that.

9)Finish reading Stephen Covey. This book is deeply influencing my mentor.

10) You don't need to work hard, but force yourself to do something you like.

11) Repeat reading a useful book throughout the years. You will understand something different every time you read back.

12) Don't wait for opportunity. Create it.

13) Study what you have to. Understand the nature of your occupation. Study what other people in your same position won't do.

14) Think analytically. See something, and analyze the story behind.

15) Remember the above.


These makes where he is standing today. A successful business man.
I appreciate his teaching on that dinner, hopefully I can change my life.

This is what he told me : 'I see something different in you, and potential too. I hope in few years down the road, we can work together. I enjoy working with you.'

For the future me.

Dear YewRaisin,

This post is dedicated to the future me, remind me of what kind of person I am now, and hopefully I'll be a better one in 5 10 years time.

I hate to let my hair down now. I love to cut it short but I can't, I can't fight the heat and my lousy hair style. Whenever I don't need to look tidy I'll tie my hair up. I wish I can have a super cool hair cut in the future.

I'm staying in Prima Setapak, a very small room in a big pent house. Zero interaction with housemate, probably changing housemate too often, we are all ignorance. My room is always in big mess. Looking at the room I have only 1 thing in my mind-- I must get myself a house to move my ass out of here. A room is not a home. A house is. My house is.

I'm driving a kancil, small but loyal vehicle. I can't express much my gratiude towards my parents for letting me to have kancil san here. I hope I still driving you after many years, my priority is a house, so I still depends on you.

My favorite restaurant is oh so heavenly good Sushi Zanmai. A must at least once a week. I m not willing to spend on food last time, especially not on expensive sushi. But I do now, and quite often shamelessly. I hope you can cut down on that future me.

It's been almost 2 years in my relationship. Still trying to make things better, know each other more, trying claim some credit sometimes. Our usual outing is movie and makan. I don't want to hear one single hurtful word no more. Relationship is sometimes painful, and loved.

My favorite music is still jpop, faorie drama is still japanese drama, dream land is still Japan. I'm a hopeless Japan whore. I hope you are able to fulfll my dream by then, future. Oh, and I hope people around me able to share with me my love, my passion and my deep interest.

My current occupation is digitl media specialist. There's a ladder I need to climb I know. My house is waiting for me. So how high have you reached my future me?

My parents are in perfectly healthy condition, except they are aging, and started to face some health problem. But no worries, mommy said papa wants to travel to China twice a year, backpacking to step his foot on all the states in China. He said he wants to backpack to Japan (without me). Kamisama, please let them be healthy as always, as now.

I don't like animal last time. But I started to treasure the wonder of animals. Although I still not able to be a good pet keeper, but I started to like pet, love chow chow and Husky. What pet do you have now future?

I always try to save more rather than earn more.I'm saving because I wish to earn more using the money. I hope can at least contribute 10% more tha my salary by doing 'earn more' mission. A successful person is not thinking to save, but to earn more.

EQ...Not too high now, at least not my ideal level. I wish to become someone who can dissolve a problem without making anyone angry, settle everyhing with brain. To do that, IQ come in place.


Hello future me. Are you a better person now?
Fight for a better future, be a better person.



Love,
Raisin 2010.

Birthday for you

Dear Jia Teng,

It was your birthday, on 28th August!
Last year we were at UK, celebrating your birthday attacking your tiny room in Atlantic point.
Just one year, we have drastically changed.
Everyone is working now, work for life, for family and future.
You are a reporter, and I'm a normal office white collar.
When we were all students, we don't care about the money left in our bank, don't need to worry about bills and future, freedom they said.

Wanted to make this day so much special for you, but I realize too late that I don't have what it takes to do what I imagined.
I hope you have a great moment!

I definitely gonna make this up for you!
The only picture i have that day was the steak on you plate, much regret now.
Please give me few more dayssssss.....


Love,
Raisin.

Nothing can describe my feelings now

One word can do the justice--sleepy =..=
is TMD sleepy.

I've been trying so hard to open my eyes while driving, and yet i think my brain shut down with my eyes open.

If only I can sleep lesser ...please help me !!

May you rest in peace.

I received a horrible call this morning, after I reach the office.
My aunty passed away yesterday, heart attack.
This decease took two of my relatives' life away.
Someone told me life is fragile, I perhaps.

Right now, sitting in the office, I am in denial.
I can't believe she just gone. Like that.
She still so fresh in my memory, as if she's still alive, in fact in my mind she still her, needless to say alive.
She always been very good to me, coz she always wanted a daughter, but she have 3 sons.
She even gave me an ang pow before I went to UK, I'm so regret now I didn't seen her much after that.
How could I not visiting her!

She's faced some mental health problem before that, and I knew it, I knew she getting worst, getting better after that, seems fine after receiving the first grandchild. But I just never pay back my care to her like she used to care for me!

I guess nothing can change anything now, nothing can bring her back.


Rest in Peace aunty, you'll always in our memory.

Love, weiwei.

My picture speaks for itself.

Isn't this lovely =)

Congrats to the Spanish!
I wish I can just stand somewhere at the corner sharing the joy of bringing back the world cup.

Malaysia? nahhh...

Fated

有事钟无艳，无事夏迎春。

Why must I surrounded by people like this always.
Being nice is something that I always want to do, I believe in giving in more, will get fruitful return.

However the reality proves me wrong, many. freaking. times.
My kindness been taken granted, and people only come to me when they have problem.
I goddam admit that sometimes I need attention, and insecure about my position, that's why I always want to be nice and kind to others.
No, I don't find this wrong, I'm doing the right thing and don't think that I'm taken people for granted.

I took everything upfront, give you all the support you need, all the time spent, end up I feel nothing, still empty and insecure.

What am I looking for?
I guess I'm just having low self esteem, just because I'm not as adorable as the others, not as feminine as the others, a bit more independent than others.
And there you go! Viola! I'm a guy/ girl.

Being myself doesn't give me any advantage. Not being myself gives my tough time.

I'm such a loser Libra. Can't decide what I want always. What I want for life? What I want to achieve at this point of time?

Such an attention freak I am.

Why do I have such feeling? Low self esteem sucks max.

El Nino

This is the reason I update this post.

我爱雀斑男了！！！

Changes

My life have been moving nowhere lately.

I always want to move forward, try something new, do something different.

But my life is getting nowhere lately. Repeating the routine I am, bitching the same thing, and continue.

I need a change perhaps. Very depressed today.

I'm a bitch who can't live without attention and companion.
Sick.

I need a improvement, a freaking change.
Need to learn how to be more charismatic, more attractive, adorable, more like a girl i reckon.

I need to be loved!

Wish List

As title:

1) New handphone, can touch touch the screen one, can take awesome picture in silence.
2) Camera. I don't even have one now!!
3) New Hand bag. I know I have many already, but I still using the same one Shee Hoong gave me on my 21st birthday. I <3 the current one, but it is too big for office.
4) I need a new pillow case urghh.
5) Tint my car.
6) New jeans, color contact lens, hair cut.
7) A house. In K.L. Here.

OK, no more dreaming...get back to work.

Thankiu. Xie xie.

Liverpool Maniac

It's been a year now, away from our dream, our hardship in doing assignments, times we dig into the books in library, book hunting for the best book, borrow DVDs from library for movie marathon, night walk to Albert Dock, British breakfast cooking, dinner cooking after afternoon nap, Liverpool One window shopping, Eating out once in a while, Lobster Pot Lunch, carrying heavy groceries from Tesco, running to the 'Reduced price' section to look for cheaper food, happily waloop 1 pound strawberries and grapes,9 pence yogurt, 1.24 pounds Shandy, and BEERS!....

Looking back the old days, it still stay fresh in our memories, these memories are irreplaceable.

First time I cried so bad over my results is in Liverpool. The feeling of hatred over myself is indescribable. Without fail, I gotten a pretty bad result, that's the only thing I regretted in Liverpool. Other than this, many many first time experience in Liverpool. The first time I walk into a real cathedral, firs time speaking to ang moh, first time looking at LFC, first time

It's summer 2010 now, looking at the juniors pictures, their excitement and enthusiast are exactly the same as ours.
Their posing, the pictures, the scenery...everything are so familiar, except we are not in the picture itself.

The memories starts flooding in my mind after seeing the pictures in FB. I never been missing my hostel so much, I can even smells my room in my dream!

I miss Liverpool that much, I don't even know I can miss the place so so much.
Please send my regards to the place we spent so much time with.

H.E.L.L.O L.I.V.E.R.P.O.O.L!!!!!

Air Asia's fault!

A & B is going to Bali
C & D is going to Phuket
E & F is going to Perth
G & H is booking for Krabi

Me feeling crappy.

LOL (pun intended)

Well, Tony Fernandas new trick,causing the huge jam in AirAsia home page. I guess maybe because of person like me, who have no planning on travel, just to check out the price.

I so wanna to travel! To HK, Taiwan, Aussie, UK!!!! The ticket is cheap cheap cheap.
Perhaps I should consider to change my phone first?
My phone is giving me big time recently, it started to load slower than my grandma walking.

Anyway...

This is a very wu liao post, just to vent thing out of my mind.
I can't stop refreshing the red color page with bees buzzing.
I just wanna go! Even if just East Malaysia!!

My bf turn his blog into football blog

As title, he turned his blog into football blog, precisely, Liverpool FC blog.
I guess the 10 years of passion is unbeatable.
http://www.darkshadowjt.blogspot.com/

I asked him, why you never write about me?

I guess coz he dun wanna walk alone with me, he want to walk with LFC.

I love my job

Due to my work scope, website seeking is part of my work, and it definitely open up my eyes to many good websites.

Although I need to entertain many low quality sites (like mine), and I need to dig back my Malay from my memory bank to reply mail, but I realize how big actually this community are in Malaysia. Many of them, treat their website/ blog as their main income. For some might work, but that's the minority of them.

Yesterday I encountered a few very good blog I can't keep to myself and must share to you all.


Edmond Yeo's blog
http://swiftywriting.blogspot.com/

This blogger very much relate to us, because he's a young film maker, and he made few short films which won him several awards. He's not based in Japan, and his short film very much adapt to Japanese movie style.
He's fortunate enough to study master in Japan, shoot several short films, went for a few film fest, but I know there's hard blood and tears behind his success. So proud of him as a Malaysian.

He shares some of his opinion as a film student. Funny enough, he is a typical chinese, who don't really encourage people to be in this production line. Probably he taste the bitterness himself, and he knows how important it is to be realistic, recognize the hardship.

He is dealing with the hardship, chasing his dream.
Totally salute this dude, and I hope he'll become another Yasmin Ahmad here.


E-HAN
http://hytehan.blogspot.com/

This is a Chinese base music/ fashion blog which I really like (Sorree to all the non-chinese readers >..<). The music genre he shares are top in quality, and he listens to Wide range of MUSICS.
The reviews of the songs I agree most of them, and he is very up to date in music and fashion.
Wonder how this guy look like...hmm..
Strongly recommended! <3


I really hope that chinese website community will open up more to advertisement. They are too protective and which explains they have good content and quality on web layout (no zap ba lang pornographic advert! )

Comparison

'Comparison is easily done when you have a taste of perfection', Katy Perry told me.

I said, 'Comparison is easily done, when you have no perfection.'

Katy said 'If we ever meet again...'


I guess people nowadays have chance to open up, to see more things, to enjoy luxury, to experience more, to desire more.
Therefore causing people always craves for more.
More money, more entertainment, more happiness, more friends, more exposure, everything wants more, except hardship.

People are greedy, I admit.
We never stop looking for more, wanting more, expecting more.

Once I thought I had the best, once I thought I regreted.
I heard stories from everyone, I make my own stories.
Comparison is so easily done, when you have to listen to all sorts of stories.

I guess people are more easily to satisfy when they don't get more, when they get merely enough.

The thing is, not the worst, but it's bad compare to others; It's not the best, but not good enough. Paradoxy.

Less is more? More is less?

What is norms? What is things 'suppose to be? suppose to do?'
How do I look when I 'suppose to be like every other girls?'
How would I be when I 'am everybody?'
What would you do, when I am the 'everybody girl'?
Will you be the same?


I hope things will get better. There's no staying at the starting point, it's either moving forward, or you find yourself at the junk, being like one.

Perhaps I just want an ordinary one. Plus an extra.

ばけもの!!!!!!

アホ!
あたしはばかです!
どうしてこれは私のせいですか?
じょうだんだけさ、 どうしでそんなに怒でますか?????
あたし女ですよ、 ちょうっとじょうだんだけだめですか!
貴方みたいのおとこは 絶対せかい一番けちいです!

なんで!! なんで なんで!!!
絶対に にどうと あなたは話ませんです!

Sotsugyo!

In Japanese, graduation!

Thanks Tian Xin who surprised me with a bouquet of lovely flower, your attendance light up my day!

Thanks George and Szetoo (Happy to see you both after so long) who snapped my picture when I was on stage!
You don't know how important is this to me...I'm just regretting I didn't buy the picture when I was in KLCC, didn't expect George snapped the picture. Arigatou manyak manyak!

Thanks all my friends who gave me so much memories study together, went UK together, gone through stress together, experience failure together. Time with you guys are unbeatable!

Thanks JT's parents who always sayang me so much <3
Thanks for another bouquet of lovely flowers..arigatou!

Thanks JT for fetching me to KLCC...LOL!
And thanks him for the time spent with me during college and Uni time.

Finally, thanks to my dearest family who always be there for me, for being so supportive regardless in financial and education, love and care.
Their unconditionally love and support is something I can't pay back at once. They are the reason of who I am today, I know they proud of me, so do I! I'm proud of my parents, who love me so much!

I love you all:)

Smart ass!

Smart people will con people's money.
Smart ass like me will get money stolen by smart people.
I lost my trusty RM100 notes today. CHOR 5...

New Year

Chinese New Year is so much different from last time.

From the weather till the atmosphere.

The expectation during chinese new year nowadays is totally different from last time.

I still remember I used to get sooo excited for new year eve, staying up late to 守岁(staying　late to bless your parents for good health), waiting for the chai shen ye prayer, listening to fire crackers, follow my grannys to prepare ancestors worshiping....Wake up in the morning rush to the kitchen and see what's my mom cooking, busy body ask for my grandpa to buy me more fire crackers...

It's always fun and happy during chinese new year.

Guess eevrything has change nowadays. No more fire crackers, no more staying up late to bless my parents (because we so use to stau up late, the meaning is different), the weather turn haywire, the kids grown up, everyone prefer staring at the laptop screen rather than the TV, lesser relatives coming back to visit my granny after my grade-grandma passed away. Awww...I miss her so much...

Nothing can stop the changes, but I still glad that I had the experience of celebrating a true Chinese New Year, not another festive season to eat all the good stuff and take ang pow money. The meaing of chinese new year is much more than that, it's a festival for family to gather, for friends to gather, for you to plan for the year ahead and crosscheck what have you done in the previous year.

This chinese new year I kinda lost, because this is the first CNY after I started working.

I felt less CNY mood, because I still thinking about my work sometimes and I have lesser time to prepare for CNY.

My boyfriend is homealone during CNY and I felt so bad for him.

My friends had a tough time going through the emotional swing.

My mom not feeling well because of the weather, and I'm not feeling well because of the heat.

ANYWAY...

One thing I feel very happy during this tiger year is I have 2 more tiger cousin sisters in the family!! The babies can always make me smile, babies rox CNY!

Now my babies in the family growing, and I started to lost count...=..=

But still I love them all!!! <3

And hor and horrr!!!!

My handsome uncle engaged during Valentine's day aka chor yat this year!!!

I felt so glad for my aunt because her youngest son finally get married"!!!!

Last year has been a tough year for all of them especially after her husband got stroke.

I sayang my aunt so much and I felt the bitterness in her heart too!

The joy on her face that day is so relief, and I know everyone of them is blessed that day!

　

30 ways to make a girl smile :)

Not totally true, but most of them able to apply to most of the girls ...


1. Tell her she is beautiful, not hot or fine. (Agree!)
2. Hold her hand at any moment you can. (Hell yea!)
3. Kiss her on the forehead.(Aww..this is sweet)
4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to. (I prefer wake up call, or a mid night message :)
5. When she is upset, hold her tight and don’t let her go. (Like most of the mushy love stories, this works.)
6. Recognize the small things; they usually mean the most. (Agree!)
7. Call her sweetie, not baby. (Anything, as long as you are comfortable.)
8. Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is. (yes, sometimes I prefer I allow to sing in front of him)
9. Pick her over all the other girls you hang with. (hmm...not when you're driving)
10. Write her notes [ she loves them ] . (who can reject this?)
11. Introduce her to family & friends as your girlfriend. (Refer to no. 6. this is the example)
12. Play with her hair & if it smells good tell her. (Play with hair is good enough)
13. Pick her up, tickle her, and play wrestle with her. (Sounds like puppy...not pussy! puppy!)
14. Pick her up and act like your going to drop her and she will scream and yell let her down even though she loves it. (Not applicable to me, giant size)
15. Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, okay just tell her jokes. (I love jokes XD)
16. Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night just because you miss her. (Too drama..)
17. Let her fall asleep in your arms. (No way...too heavy to move me after that)
18. Carve your names into a tree. (I like to go green.)
19. If she’s mad, kiss her. (Normally girls will just throw tantrum and yell back.)
20. Give her piggyback rides. (hahahhahaha....!!! Speechless)
21. Bring her flowers just because of nothing. (Hmm...no one do this anymore nowadays)
22. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you’re alone. (I realize guys are difficult to treat gf the same in front of friends..fail!)
23. Let her take as many pictures as she wants. (Should change to 'let her SHOP as long as she wants.)
24. Slow dance with her even if there isn’t music playing. (very western, OUT)
25. Kiss her in the rain. (What the heck...)
26. Take long walks on the beach at night with her. (This is sweet..:)
27. Wait outside her house in the pouring rain to surprise her when she gets home (This is..very..drama)
28. When she’s ill stay by her bedside (Oh this is a must la ok)
29. Play fight with her and let her win (You mean the real fight? or the tickle fight? Guy should win the girl and you know...ahem..)
30. And most importantly if you love her, tell her. (Girls are easy to please.)


XOXO

What touches you?

Picture credit to Jennifer Tai photography, her photograph truly touches me.




Many small little things can make my day.
Not extra things like won a lottery or get promoted.

Something simple, like a baby's smile, a beautiful pictures, a funny jokes, a warm person, the funny way of people walking, catching up with old friends, old school friends gathering invitation, kind gentlemen help you to carry things without you asking, a stranger's smile, a dinner appointment, a nice song in the middle of traffic jam, old time memories, a tease, an old song full of memories, a few line MSN conversation with long lost friend.

All these touches me.

As simple as a soulful lyrics.
Simple as knowing friend's valentine's day plans, imagining the smile on their faces.

It's just simple and happy to live in the life you have. Remember every bits of them. Happy or sad, they will bring you something at the end of the day.
Thankful for the rights and wrongs. They are the one making what you are today.



If there were next life, I wish I can bring memories with me.

1+1=?

There's so much feelings recently, not myself, it's by seeing my friends feelings, which somehow affected me.
Emotions is weird I think, one thing I cannot handle properly is emotions. That's why rather than handling the emotions, it's better to be emotionless.

If you don't have much emotions you wouldn't expect. No expectation will not lead to disappointment. This is what I learnt from my pass.

But when feeling strikes you, no one can avoid it, no matter how rationale and wise you are in managing your EQ.

Angry just piss off and curse!
Sad you just need to cry yourself out and sleep.
Happy just enjoy the moment, keep it in your memory bank.
But what when all these feelings fixed up?
I experienced this once long time ago, where I have no way to handle it except being a coward and run away from problem.

Make people hate me, then learn a lesson and be fake to everyone, and slowly I adapt to the fake me and forget the past. I guess I am happier by letting things go. At least people don't hate me that much, and I'm glad I learn when I'm still able to make mistakes.

Don't get me wrong, I'm quite satisfy with my current life.
A stable job, couple of close friends, dinner mate, a partner, families...I guess no news is good news! :p

Job is getting more and more...this is the life cycle I reckon.
Gonna head back to work..headache!!!

Why Blog?

Why I only feel like blogging when I'm not in a good mood?
I'm not extraordinary bad mood till want to vent things out, but i just have lower self esteem today. This morning's Pagi show is funny, the later topic of the day was do you hate eating alone, the first topic is 'what is the ridiculous demand you ever get from your partner'.

I guess I hate eating alone LOL. very much.

Since I'm not in the mood of working, looking at the computer but think of something else, might as well I do something to make myself better.

What can you do to make you feel better when you're in office?

1) Stuff yourself in music, maximize the volume of your mp3/ handphone whatsoever, follow the beat and shake it! (You'll look like a freak but hey, I don't care!)

2) make yourself a cup of rich Nestlo, put as much milo powder you want, sweet things make you happy I guess.

3) Go out of the office, find some place which is absolutely quiet. (I guess will get more emo by doing this )

4) call your boy friend/ girl friend. (If only they are not working, able to entertain you)

5) Visit shopping site, entertainment site, any light content site.

6) go Youtube and find some funny commercial to LMAO!

7) think of the weekend, plan your weekend ahead. If so happen it's Monday then skip this.

8) Ask someone for dinner, someone who can make you happy for dinner. Then look upon the nite.

9) running out of idea.

10) blog lo.


Haiz, still low esteem-ing.

Well, I think i gonna start by doing item no.1, ciao!

For Smeagol

I've not been blogging for a century time. I forgotten how to blog.
Not feel like working today, plus I'm still not feeling well, might as well I come back and take a good rest.
Made some quite serious mistakes at work because of not feeling well, yes, better to take MC and rest.

I like my work, although i have so many things to learn but still I love my work. I love making friends with them funny people, I love talking, I love learning, working and have fun at the same time. What is wrong with talking, you know...converse, not MSN, but verbally talk? What is wrong with making friends? What is wrong being nice to the person who treat you well? I enjoy talking to elder people, anything wrong? blek.

I've come across someone looks exactly like this
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Smeagol

If you watched LOTR, you'll know how he behave, sneaky, dirty, insidious，do things under the dark.
If you never watch before, nevermind, his face is obvious enough. No?

come. Show you another one..
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NAH!!

If you find Smeagol adorable, you probably is one too.

If you gonna put the equation of smeagol on me, sorry...I'm human being, not creature!