Friday, June 18, 2010

Fated



有事钟无艳,无事夏迎春。

Why must I surrounded by people like this always.
Being nice is something that I always want to do, I believe in giving in more, will get fruitful return.

However the reality proves me wrong, many. freaking. times.
My kindness been taken granted, and people only come to me when they have problem.
I goddam admit that sometimes I need attention, and insecure about my position, that's why I always want to be nice and kind to others.
No, I don't find this wrong, I'm doing the right thing and don't think that I'm taken people for granted.

I took everything upfront, give you all the support you need, all the time spent, end up I feel nothing, still empty and insecure.

What am I looking for?
I guess I'm just having low self esteem, just because I'm not as adorable as the others, not as feminine as the others, a bit more independent than others.
And there you go! Viola! I'm a guy/ girl.

Being myself doesn't give me any advantage. Not being myself gives my tough time.

I'm such a loser Libra. Can't decide what I want always. What I want for life? What I want to achieve at this point of time?

Such an attention freak I am.

Why do I have such feeling? Low self esteem sucks max.

7 comments:

劉明文 said...

你不能改變容貌~~但你可以展現笑容................................................................

俊偉 said...

婚姻對男人來說是賭他的自由,對女人而言卻是賭她的幸福。..................................................................

李哲維 said...

生存乃是不斷地在內心與靈魂交戰;寫作是坐著審判自己。.................................................................                           

蕙春蕙春 said...

成熟,就是有能力適應生活中的模糊。.................................................................

家銘家銘家銘 said...

如果成為一支火柴,也要點亮一個短暫的宇宙;如果是一隻烏鴉,也要叫疼閉塞的耳膜。.................................................................

李娟張怡詹莉真 said...

睇完之後覺得有d頓悟..感謝分享...................................................................

筱婷筱婷 said...

看著你的BLOG 好多朋友都回應 真厲害..................................................................