The most chee siin online thingy!

This is my awful experience logging in black board.

6.05pm- Start logging in.

6.30pm-Madness. Cannot find any 'FORUM' at all!

7.20 pm-'FORUM' found, I can't find it because it just never show up (loading forever) on the left hand side.

7.49pm-Clicking in 'INTRODUCTION'. Loading and loading and hanged.

7.54pm- Finally I saw NAMES on the page. Clicking in the other page trying to find my name. Loading.

7.57pm- Still loading. Chatting with FW (Complaining actually ><)

7.58pm- Still....according to FW it's something to do with heavy rain justnow. Which I don't know why because there was no rain yesterday and I still can't log in. Or streamyx? Or whatever...==

8.01pm-#!$%^&*#$*&%$#!%^&*

8.06pm- Resresh. Loading stopped.

8.17pm- All over again. Great.



What kind of stupid server is this?
I heard that we have to post a introduction before today 12pm or else we are going to be barred BECAUSE WE DIDN'T POST AN INTRO.

Fine.


Yesterday

4.05 pm- Trying to open the student page, failed.

7.00pm- Try again. Failed.

11.15pm- Try again. Failed.

11.20pm- Try on my brother's and my housemate's computer. Failed.

I believe that the heavy traffic of the server cannot accomodate so many students doing posting at the same time. So I think I just gonna do it the other day.

But the email freak us out.
The only thing i can do by that time is to call FW to help us out, since she is the one I know who have no problem with the intranet.

What kind of insanity is this?

I don't think is my network of anything to do with my bandwidth.

I opened facebook, no prob.
Even XiaXue's blog that usually took up more time to load also seems ok.
So what on earth happened to the intranet??????
Or blackboard just turned to white board?

Days become stressfull and shitty since LJMU thing starts.
Hate this kind of feeling .

Glimpse of light.

Is there anything call post PMS? PPMS?

These days things get jumbled up.
Uncertainties, uneasiness, despair, nerves, confusion, and pretty much of dissapointment wandering around my mind.

What is the purpose of life?

What is the purpose of getting so much trouble in dealing with people just to lead myeslf to more trouble? More despair perhaps?

Why are there such foolish that can hurt others and make things more complicated, and yet know nothing about human's feeling at all?

Thinking of covering my friend's pet site, but not in this joyful mood at the moment.

Everything just grey...



Get back my empty phone, as empty as my mind when I saw the phone.

Years of memories, loads of happy and sad, tons of cares and tender.
All gone in a blink.
Tearing in silence, but nothing help, it's gone.

Getting back my phone doesn't make any good to make up my day, but it just got worst.

Cloudy day tonight.



It's an art to communicate with people, where I am always not good in this.
It's an highly sophisticated form of art.
Not to say to becoming noble.
We can never be.

Just the art of interact with people, knowing each other heart and cares for others deeply from the heart.

There are people who born with the charisma. Wherever they go they will have the spotlight of the crowd. People will wait for this kind of people to take the lead. Whenever this people say something, the rest will remain silent, adoringly listen to what he says.

There are people who like to be alone. Quiet and normal, never wants to have a taste of being everyone's sweetheart, but just enjoy the ordinary me. Nothing bad about this, at least they are happy with who they are, and just need not to being a follower, nor a leader.

There are people who wanted to be someone so hard. But this kind of people has no power to sway other people, will forever become a follower, supporter. Opinion just become mute from their mouth, no one is listening to your words. Ignorence is not on a purpose, but this fellow just born with this...something. Not being able to let other people hear your voice. Once in a while, when you yell out your words, and people just happen to stop talking and listening to your word, they have no idea how amazing you are! But after that things goes back the same, again.

Knowing how huge impact one's word can be.
It's like a sword, viperish, hurting the innocent one.
It might not be a conspiracy no.
But unintentional words, or action can mean so much to someone cares about you so much.
This is the first time I saw someone take this so seriously.

Maybe this is not the first time for me, I'm getting use to it actually. I can get comfortable within days.
But for someone who truly want to be your friend, get hurts, badly.



It's time for you to open up.
Forget the past.
Get use to it, and soon you'll understand the meaning of everything.
Life is a circle.
People come and go, time past, we learn.
Shitty things do happen sometimes, but no one can stop you for being who you are, and how lovely you will always be.
Let go for what winding your heart.
Look further, there's lots more blissful thing.
There will be something over the rainbow, just let the rain falls, and you're not alone.

Lucky unlucky

Not so good these few days.

I can get angry with things easily [or many things make me angry at once?] , and get tired easily ==

Go to hell PMS, you guys will never understand the annoyance of being a girl, especially when you have problem with your 'best friend' ==

After a long walk under the boiling hot sun, everything turns hot.

First is my phone showing me color.
Then is my brother showing me color.
And then everyone showing me color. I.Q Bal especially.

He make me damn potong stim don't feel like going to UK anymore.

When I get my phone I have so many problems, but i sorted it out one by one. And just when I feel like my phone is problem free, it gives me problem AGAIN!

For one moment, I told myself:" Am I suppose to change the god damn phone, since it shows me I'm not a Nokia user?"

12/3/2009

No phone now since 2 days ago...so not use to it ==

Baby please come back to me!!

So not right these few days. Everything is messy, everything is not in order, everything is out of my expectation, everything makes me wanna scream and yell for no reason.

Talking to the only sibling who stay so close to me but never got an answer.

This is one thing I really furious about.
[I really don't know what am I writing now and I am very ( ) at the moment...]

People are funny . Even sometimes I am funny I know.

I just have to learn, learn how to take things easily.

Hopefully I can be Lindsay Lohan in Just My Luck, luckier than ever.


Uncertain about future, feels damn useless now.
I'm 21 (going to be 22), still not earning any bread for home.
Have a brother that more uncertain about future than me.
And he probably will change course, meaning my parents have to spend more money for his education. [not guarantee will have return on his investment]

Living in my 4m X4m small bird cage, messy and untidy.
Clueless about what to do in the future, what can I do in the future.
Wanting to hang out with friends everytime, looking for fun, irresponsible for my own life.
Taking money from parents every month, and my dad have to work even he already exceed his age of retirement.
Never done anything that make me proud of myself, or let my parents proud of me.
I can't promise that I can pay back for what my parents had pay for me, even though I receive more and better education than both of them.


Useless.

I wanna have my own car by 24, my own house before 27, my career before 30, sending parents for Europe trip before 28, clear up my PTPTN loan before 28, have my first 5 digit FD in my bank before 26, pay back my parents at least 1k per month.


Unrealistic I know, but not unreachable.

First you have to put aside your dream, your interest, and you have to work like a donkey 24/7, hope for a promotion, work late for another 5 years, hope for another promotion, and save enough money to do investment. Live like anyone else in the city, dream about what you crave for in the past. Being a Normal boring and nerd white collar. And that's all.





Emo =.=

Beach, Sea, Sand, Blooming youthood!

Hop on two cars, late afternoon, people in the car, chicken in the ice box, poker cards, Carlsberg.
Here we go, off to Port Dickson!

The last time I went to Port Dickson is because of a bloody assignment shooting.

It was 5 in the morning, we're all not willing to get up from bed but force to.
Not very pleasent journey because we are all under stress, but end up we still do star jump together.
For one moment, I nearly thought it was a great assignment.
But now someone *ahem* keep reminding me how dissatisfy and frustrating he is, I feel ulterlly guilty.



i'msorryokayit'smyfaultishoun'tbesosiaozhaboandirritatingmakeyouallhatemeforrestofthesem. *bow*

Coming back to this same place, with totally different people, mood and relationship, I get excited for going to a trip with these friends who can always make me laugh!

Sepuluh Orang, 2 days 2 nights, sunshine and Sunshine Bay, ants, Poker and Beer...Here we go!


The all time jokers.


Beach!!!! Finally!!!


Com'on, let's pose~
JT: I'm dark shadow, don't you see??


Preparing for BBQ while the day still bright.




Someone is trying to pretend busy...


Let the feast begin!
We makaned very nice roasted lamb, chicken wing, drumstick, jagung, sweet potatoes, and even raw meat!
Picture courtesy of See Yeong




The next day. Not so pretty beach, more like a huge longkang.
See how frust Mr.Dark Shadow is!


Chic No.1.


Chic No.2


The beach,again. This one better, and cleaner.


I purposely put this two picture together one so that I look slimmer. *grin*




'what's that??'


'what what?'


JT:who's this panda?




After wx was thrown into water.


Third day, head back to KL, stop by Seremban, must have Siew Bao.


The same Siew Bao stall 2 years back.


Beef Noodles completed the trip.
Too bad See Yeong cannot take beef.
The nicer one didn't open that day, this is another shop, decor and price are nicer.

Port Dickson's sea water is like salt water mix with trash, oil, and more trash.
My face start itchy after 5 minutes in water.
The smater Kok Keong, Mun Yi and Lydia just stay at the beach, watching us playing in the poluted chemical sea water.
Weixiang wanna stay at the beach initially, but we are too eager to have him in water, so we thrown the gigantic panda into the water~yay!

What a holiday!

Everyone loving it!

Now I'm sitting here, right in front of my computer, and I still have McD's brew coffee in my breathe.
McD is giving out discount coupons since last week, and I had McD for breakfast, 5(FIVE!!!) days in a row.

We're quite exaggerate for having McD breakfast so often, and we can even stay up till 4 in the morning just to wait for the breakfast.
I wonder why they don't sell McMuffin during day time? It's much better than normal bugger bread!

I was once so hate fast food, and now I have McD almost everyday...sigh.
I just simply enjoy reading newspaper and have a sip of nice coffee. I don't afford to go bucks-bintang, McD is good enough for me.

I'm not writing advertorial fyi (I'm not that good to write any actually), just wanna show you something farnie in this McD coupon.



normal t&c printed on the coupon,
'not valid in Genting McD, not exchangeable for cash, 5% gov tax, blah blah blah...'


WAIT!!!

*Photocopies are ALLOWED*

har*wink*??
Normally is photocopies NOT allow, but Uncle Ronald seems a bit desperate to stimulate the sales, and therefore not only photocopy allowed, but also Download allowed.

And crazy people like us, really betul-betul hontouni go and download the coupon, colour printed and cut out nicely wtf...

McD like kinda one of the most unhealthy fast food, but they tend to make it looks very nutritious and balance diet.

Ok, let's take a look how much calories in one set of sausage McMuffin with egg.

Sausage McMuffin with egg-357kcal
Hash Brown- 145kcal
Coffee- 139kcal
Total-641kcal.

This is the total count for ONE cup of coffee...many of you all,like me, won't satisfy with only one cup of coffee,coz it's FREE refill. I'm sure drink more than one cup, com'on la, we pay for it already ok...well, for a set of breakfast, it seems quite ok for the calories.

Let see how much calories in a large set of McValue meal.

Spicy Chicken McDeluxe-643kcal
French Fries-431kcal
Coke-213kcal
Total-1287kcal

A female like my height (around 166cm) , moderate weight need around 1800 calories per day.
Make it 2000kcal, a set of McD like this already took up more than half the calories you need per day! Scary huh...

It's not THAT healthy eating McD you know, and it quite pricey.


Now they are having promotion RM5.95 lunch, for McChicken, Double cheese burger, Chicken McNugget and Fillet-O-Fish.

McD is so licik you know.
Previously before the price hike, McChicken and Fillet-O-Fish is only Rm6 something (don't really remember the exact price), zhong zhi jau much cheaper la. But now they're having promotion and make it sounds like it's really cheap!
Com'on la..that the previous price lo...

but STILL, I 'm one of them who attracted by the price. LOL.

This place always been our all time favourite.
I really mean, ALL time.






Pictures courtesy of z2ww :)

I'm Loving it!

ここに、ふたりだけ...

Suddenly, In the starry night, and the whole night view of KL, I saw rainbow, in the sky.

I never knew on this day, traffic will be so terrible, everywhere will be filled with people, long queue everywhere.
This is over-commercialise.
But still, there are so many people willing to be conned...:)

Although it full of hassle and people everywhere, but still, thanks for giving me all these that seems impossible for me.









ありがとう。
私のそばにいってありがとう。
すべてをありがとう。
あなたがいるから、この日は特別なんだ。
大好きだよ!

Gathering

My primary school has a great history in Ipoh, it considered one of the oldest school in Ipoh.

I remember the school will flood whenever there's heavy rain. During my time, we still study in the wooden building, where the wood is only cover half of the wall. It's exactly like a kandang u know...!!!
Last time when there's heavy rain, two rows of students have to shift to the seats further to the window, because the rain will blown in from the window.

But still, we having so much fun playing ropes hopping under the huge old tree, hiding treasure on the tree, having assembly under the willow tree, took part in singing and story telling competition under the same willow tree.

The school notice about the school building seriously need to rebuild, and the headmaster by that time worked very very hard to raise money from every possible way to fund raising.

And now, no more kandang classroom, what's replace them are all concrete and bricks building, with a huge dewan and nicely facilitated.

Although I'm being a nerd most of my primary school time, do nothing but study and try to memorise all the essays for dictation, but still I having great time study in Primary school--SRJK(c) Yuk Choy. 育才华小。

The way the school name our class is very cute, we're in the first class of primary 6, they called us 小六一。

Since we graduated from primary school, it has been 10 years from now. The class gathering every CNY had been practice till now, for 10 years. We visited mainly 2 teacher, 1 is our English teacher, Mr.Phan, and our beloved science teacher, Ms. Liew.

I can still recall that I affraid of my science teacher a lot, because she always give a lot of homework, and she's a straight teacher. She will beat us with rottan whenever we did not so good in test. But now, she treat us like children more than students. And we are so glad to have her as teacher.

I can remember clearly how they looked like when they're in primary school.
Most of them are juz simply nerd..you know all first class student, they'll have the nerd looking.
But now, look at them, they look so different, all are more handsome and prettier. (and taller)

It's not easy to have primary school friend still keep in contact, that's why this kind of anual gathering is extra special.



Ms.Liew--the science teacher aka our mama.



Uncle J the b.boy












Group photos at Mr.Phan's house.