2 sided

Things always have two sided. When you always think you are right in this way, try rethink, maybe you're ALSO right in the opposite way.

Just 'zen'ed this out recently.

For example, you're been using this road for your entire life to work, who knows the longer road is also better? Faster, safer, smoother?

Like what you been thinking is the things you dislike, when the days goes by, only you realize, you don't hate it, and you are actually liking it.

Paradigm shift, from one of the book I read.

I actually like the things I used to think I dislike. When I don't have the chance to do it, only I realize I don't like to do certain things, but the feeling of in need and the satisfaction is something I yearn for.

Human is a funny creature.

Jan 7

It's not Jan 7 now but I wanna talk about Jan7.
Actually is Jan 6, the Sunday.

I was kinda out of shape that day, waking up and doing nothing, trying to get my job done.
At the end of the day, I am yet to get one thing done.

The insecure feeling is flooding me, and lying on my bed rethink everything.
Clock tick to Jan 7.

2 months now. How are you now?

Looking at the lamp I bought with you, a little funny UK post bin lamp, I shed some tears.
It's been a while, could be stress I guess.

Things definitely have to speed up. Speed speed up.

Going to BKK again this Thursday. This time round is alone.

Well, I just got to get use to it.

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Got some souvenirs last night :) Souvenirs rocks!
And a very nice limited edition Vodka bottle. I didn't manage to buy it last time, and here you are!

It's good to feel the house with life again :) Dinner, snacks and ice cream. No healthy but definitely meaningful.

Alright, back to work.

Work on Sunday, SUCKS.

Woke up in the morning afternoon by a phone call from boss...here we go again, this is just a start for traveling, more to come.

He asked me in the airport, can you see yourself traveling frequent?
'Last time I can't, now I can.'

I can sense that he's planning to get me replacing him in BKK so he can fly to more countries.

True enough, I'm flying again this Thursday- Saturday.

Seriously, Saturday?
OK, not to be too sadist, the last flight is good, at least they serve hot towel, hot meal with dessert and blanket. Thank you. 

Waken by not a very good wake up call, that's why I'm feeling rather empty now?

Sitting here at my dining table, can't find a slight semangat to make breakfast / lunch for myself.

I used to be very excited to have my own kitchen, cook whatever I like.
But having it and practicing it is different thing.

I realize my motivation of cooking is never my own stomach, get it?
LOL.

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Whatever it is, it's good to have so much thing spinning in my head. Whatever my boss told me stirred my mind. At least it have to keep moving, I need to get rid of the rust.

For whatever reason, whether he don't have anymore candidate, or he really wants me to be there and take over some task. I have to, no choice but have to be THERE, where he sees me.

Utter stress, and I got shocked it's actually more than what I though he want me to do.
Good thing?

One step closer

My colleague told me this yesterday:
'OK' I said.
'Come on Weisin, people said OK just because they run out of things to say.'

Wake up call, this is the true meaning of excessive OK.

Well, gonna step foot back to Malaysia today. These few days I though I will have quite some alone time, but I still sleep late everyday, woke up with a panda eyes.

Good thing is I discovered a nice massage place in Bangna, they have branches too in different place, We shall go and have a try, bitches :)

Bought some beers and some snacks for present yesterday. It's too heavy and I can't carry them to buy food. So I buy food (11pm dinner), and walk back to the store, and carry my stuff.

Thai people are generally quite helpful :)

I wished I can come with someone on my next trip (not the boss...), so I can have company to go to the town. Colleague maybe?

Heard from the local that Bangkok is not very safe nowadays. I guess crime happens everywhere, other than Singapore :)

She told me that Thai people believe 25 years old is not a good year. That's why she don't learn to drive until she's pass 25 years old. Superstitious you can say, but as far as I can see, quite sucks for lots of people this year.

And I realize mine start sucky when I just turn to 25...whatever it is, please don't haunt me anymore.
I just want to live a good life.
Maybe I should go to the fortune teller, or start telling this to Jesus? 

Skyline

From different end of the latitude. How I wish to be there, in a cozy room and a excited adventure.

Coldness

This room is seriously COLD....i switch the air cond to 26 and still....COLD...

So...have quite a hectic day, went through my slides times and times and times.
Overall Bangkok so far is a nice place, at least I can adapt to it. People like to smile and helpful.

It's better to venture around, with friends, with friend.

I haven't step my feet to town yet, but I think will be quite cool.

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Switch on the TV, keep switching channels times and times. Thailand have seriously a lot of channels, and I just keep switching it.


I think I will make a few more trips here this month, until the launch at the month end.
Hopefully can get a good night sleep tonight. Blanket oh blanket...

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Felt like a noob, total noob.
Pure angst there is.

I had a moment of alone time in the toilet today.
Reminded myself some really random stuff.

The day after the split. You called, and my heart sank, and I give you some time to rethink what you want.
I really think we won't end up like this. But at night everything changed. The happiness and relief in your eyes, told me that everything is changed.

It's the best thing happening, reinforcing myself.
We aim to please. Whatever before us which stopping us from moving forward, we don't need to suffer anymore.

New Year

*quick post*

Blogging from Bangkok, Bang Na.

Didnt' have much sleep last night, the room is cold, don't know how to fix the air cond, and there's no blanket for god sake...

Have so much in my mind, spinning. Things flash back again like a show reel, the goods, the bads.

We know each other so well, that no words need to mention to know what's in each others' mind.
Can I still play music with a broken string?


Have long conversation with the boss yesterday in the airport. Overall....
I'm just not THERE yet, THERE they want to see me, but I'm not ready.

'Busy is not equal to productive. You have to be productive.'

True enough.

Buck up dear, buck up.