I don't like this, wake up from nightmare, no one to talk to, alone with myself in this empty room.
I never felt so terrify in my dream before, I cried so many times, scream and shout, but still this is useless because I know I can't get back what is gone.
I saw them lying on the floor, shattered.
Everything is covered with flesh and blood. It's horrifying.
Hate myself like this, stupid fat ass, idiot I am.
I'm always stupid in front of you. I don't like people look at me from high.
Stupid pride and ego.
I'm not flawless, in fact I'm full of weaknesses.
I have no more confident, hating myself more.
I'm so not like others. People can forgive 'others'.
Can't find myself out of your shadow.
Have I throwed away long ago?
I want a good night sleep, dreamless.
Look forward to another sun rise.