Rational = coward

Happy 1 day belated birthday to myself.

I really need a Happy year. That's why so many people wishing me for happiness this time.


Happy birthday.


Officially 25. Quarter life.

I always know my tolerance level is high, didn't know is SO high, there's another baby in your life. Baby, such a lovely name. Baby.Baby.Baby..fts

I though my way of dealing with this, is rational. Is adult way. Is the best way.
Who knows I'm just being a farking coward.

I'm afraid to argue, afraid to heart break, afraid to cry, afraid to loose you.

I'm overestimating myself, and you.
Looking back, it's just an action of cowardliness. Someone is afraid, damn afraid, and choose to give in.

'My love is like ice cream in a cone, sometimes the ice cream is melting spill over the cone. But what I want is the ice cream inside the cone.'

Brilliant I would say, well said. Make everything so sensible and myself look like a dump ass accepting.


Faith and trust have been shattered all over. I want all, or nothing.

If this is the way you choose to live, I'll respect you.

I can live the same life as well, have another person to come to my life and keep me company.
Isn't this happily ever after?

Let's be it.

Looking back

Switched on my TV yesterday...ever since I subscribe the TV package, I have never sit down properly with you to watch the TV. 

Keep switching channel, and I stopped at a Jap drama.

All this while I've been heading forward blindly. Even before I know what I want, I made decisions, and only to realize what I really want. Most of the time, the thing I don't really want, I develop interest and move on.

Me being me. Realistic, not adventurous, anxious, eager to success. And somehow, all these doesn't match with you at all. I know that, and know that till today, you are still a happy dreamer, being force into a different lifestyle.

Looking back, were there fruits of hardships? Or just nothing remain the same, the success is just merely a process and illusions, without any taste victory?

勉励

小朋友，不要迷失自己。
你就是你，当你做什么都无补于事的时候， 就做自己吧。
难保世上某个角落， 有块瑰宝在等着你。
别伤了自己。

小朋友， 失落不是解药， 狠毒不是解脱。
什么都不做？

可能是解药吧。

让自己沉没在无尽的负面情绪。
物极必反， 反的时候就是好汉一条。

加油小朋友。

活出自己

在关键的时候，何苦摇尾乞怜呢？

I used to have so much faith and trust one you, because I was treated like queen of your world.
I still do, that's why when the faith and trust shaken, my world colapse.
Tried so hard to pull everything back together, felt so pity for myself.
But I know that I have to fight, the last fight. With no regrets.

We had pocket full of love, is there any quota for this?

I don't know what I'm fighting for, but right now I'm not gonna give up.

I need to gain back my confidence and march like a soldier.

Good bye September, welcome October.

The Wish

To ladies:

1) Your self value come from inside, no one can create for you, and no one can put a price on you.

2) Do not lower down yourself. You worth more than what he/ they thinks.

3) Improve yourself with what you like . You look best when you're doing what you love.

4) Shine from the inside. Always have good attitude, smile! Not to afraid doing extra, you never know what's in return.

5) Pamper yourself once in a while. You did so much for others, well done girl. It's time for your reward.

6) Don't endure the pain. If the scarifies is one sided, then live for yourself.

7) Dress pretty. Not for others, it's for you to feel good about yourself.

8) What's wrong with sexy lingerie? Feel confident from inside out :P

9) Be independent at times, you're strong enough to take care of yourself.

10) Be dependent at times, you worth people taking care of you.

11) Be FIERCE. With taste.


weisin 2012.

To the ladies out there who think like me. And for self practice.

男人。女人

女人流着眼泪， 思虑在更遥远的未来。
男人问， 哪里不舒服？
女人说， 心里。

女人不轻易掉泪， 掉的是信心和爱情。
男人不轻易低头， 低下了就抬不起来。

倒数时钟。
还有多少个日子， 多远的未来？
心要什么时候才磨累？ 还是早都累了， 只是 大家在伪装？

男女情事本来就非加减乘除般简单。
能共枕到老的， 该尽了多大的努力和度量？
爱情还存在在那早都麻木了的屋檐下吗？

爱情和感情的准则在哪里？

死灰甚难复燃， 死灰复燃了也只是璀璨一时。 不消片刻就是灰烬了。
准备好， 要珍惜对方了吗？
要各自努力吗？
要隐藏隐忧吗？

男人。 女人。 共勉之。

Being myself

Kinda ran out of title, although I don't blog frequent :p

Imma Singaporu desu! After all day long of presentation, food munching and fighting with sleepiness, finally had my hot shower and sitting here, trying to avoid work.

This is my X trip to SG, I still like here.
Probably each time I had short trip, which makes me still like here quite a lot.

Met up with Yee Yee yesterday with her 80% look-alike hubby.
Talked so much about people who are getting married this year, kinda scary to me.

Never in my childhood, till now I'm thinking about getting married, at least not that early.
This is what I always said to my friends: ' Girls vs Guys are unfair. Girls have shorter 'unmarried' grace period than men, WHY?'

We fought so hard for our life, for academy, career. Soon after that family, marriage and children have to come in place. And there goes your children's academy, studies, well being....the list goes on.

Women, you are a fighter!

I'm not anti marriage, I love kids! But I just don't think I'm achieving anything YET. And I have no confident I can have all the time in the world to fight for career, after you have something call family in your life.

you know what I mean?

The transition from just graduate, to just started career, until now...marriage. A bit too soon for me, again, scary.

Well, this trip has been very fruitful to me till now. Everytime I come to office I felt inspirational, make me persist in my work even more.

More challenge ahead. 5 PROPOSALS pending. Seems like wednesday when I go back to office, it's gonna be disaster.

Awesome view from my hotel when I first check in. Bikini mo aru yo!

 The must-drink!

SiTF (sounds like STFU to me) award medal! Yay to iSnap team!