活出自己

在关键的时候，何苦摇尾乞怜呢？

I used to have so much faith and trust one you, because I was treated like queen of your world.
I still do, that's why when the faith and trust shaken, my world colapse.
Tried so hard to pull everything back together, felt so pity for myself.
But I know that I have to fight, the last fight. With no regrets.

We had pocket full of love, is there any quota for this?

I don't know what I'm fighting for, but right now I'm not gonna give up.

I need to gain back my confidence and march like a soldier.

Good bye September, welcome October.

The Wish

To ladies:

1) Your self value come from inside, no one can create for you, and no one can put a price on you.

2) Do not lower down yourself. You worth more than what he/ they thinks.

3) Improve yourself with what you like . You look best when you're doing what you love.

4) Shine from the inside. Always have good attitude, smile! Not to afraid doing extra, you never know what's in return.

5) Pamper yourself once in a while. You did so much for others, well done girl. It's time for your reward.

6) Don't endure the pain. If the scarifies is one sided, then live for yourself.

7) Dress pretty. Not for others, it's for you to feel good about yourself.

8) What's wrong with sexy lingerie? Feel confident from inside out :P

9) Be independent at times, you're strong enough to take care of yourself.

10) Be dependent at times, you worth people taking care of you.

11) Be FIERCE. With taste.


weisin 2012.

To the ladies out there who think like me. And for self practice.

男人。女人

女人流着眼泪， 思虑在更遥远的未来。
男人问， 哪里不舒服？
女人说， 心里。

女人不轻易掉泪， 掉的是信心和爱情。
男人不轻易低头， 低下了就抬不起来。

倒数时钟。
还有多少个日子， 多远的未来？
心要什么时候才磨累？ 还是早都累了， 只是 大家在伪装？

男女情事本来就非加减乘除般简单。
能共枕到老的， 该尽了多大的努力和度量？
爱情还存在在那早都麻木了的屋檐下吗？

爱情和感情的准则在哪里？

死灰甚难复燃， 死灰复燃了也只是璀璨一时。 不消片刻就是灰烬了。
准备好， 要珍惜对方了吗？
要各自努力吗？
要隐藏隐忧吗？

男人。 女人。 共勉之。

Being myself

Kinda ran out of title, although I don't blog frequent :p

Imma Singaporu desu! After all day long of presentation, food munching and fighting with sleepiness, finally had my hot shower and sitting here, trying to avoid work.

This is my X trip to SG, I still like here.
Probably each time I had short trip, which makes me still like here quite a lot.

Met up with Yee Yee yesterday with her 80% look-alike hubby.
Talked so much about people who are getting married this year, kinda scary to me.

Never in my childhood, till now I'm thinking about getting married, at least not that early.
This is what I always said to my friends: ' Girls vs Guys are unfair. Girls have shorter 'unmarried' grace period than men, WHY?'

We fought so hard for our life, for academy, career. Soon after that family, marriage and children have to come in place. And there goes your children's academy, studies, well being....the list goes on.

Women, you are a fighter!

I'm not anti marriage, I love kids! But I just don't think I'm achieving anything YET. And I have no confident I can have all the time in the world to fight for career, after you have something call family in your life.

you know what I mean?

The transition from just graduate, to just started career, until now...marriage. A bit too soon for me, again, scary.

Well, this trip has been very fruitful to me till now. Everytime I come to office I felt inspirational, make me persist in my work even more.

More challenge ahead. 5 PROPOSALS pending. Seems like wednesday when I go back to office, it's gonna be disaster.

Awesome view from my hotel when I first check in. Bikini mo aru yo!

 The must-drink!

SiTF (sounds like STFU to me) award medal! Yay to iSnap team!

被打败了

这次感觉上完全被打败了。

从前无论多么苛刻的责骂，我只要哭一哭， 第二天就没事了。
这次哭不出来，只有隐隐的痛，还有无限的失望。

还有一种要放弃的感觉，糟透了。

胸口闷闷的，谁可以听我诉苦啊！！

What can I do?

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there



The feelings deep down, with much anger and disappointment.
What can I do to make you happy? Sometimes you have to admit it that I am plain dump.
I don't think I didn't try my best, but my best could be your worst.
I have given out my everything, but still nothing to you.
I just want recognition and sense of successful.

You know that I'm a follower, that's why I'm here. I will try, harder, to not being a follower.
Urgh, when your spirit is torn apart, it's hard to get yourself up together.

Keep on fighting girl, if not, there's still plenty of trees in the forest, you will find your way out.

Systematic?

I myself, as a person, I have to admit that I am extremely messy, doing what appears before me and I hate to put back things after use. I'm trying hard to learn to be less messy...

However, I used to work in a very systematic environment, everything have a 'system', 'Procedure'...
Although they are not perfect, always tweaking here and there, but at least no one question about the credibility. People trust this company because they are long in this industry, and they are (so call) listed company ..well well..

My life turn 360 after changing job. Things I exposed is totally different, ways of dealing problems and troubleshoot is very 'creative', handling people and hierarchy... typical style working in big corporation.
The only matter is I'm servicing this big corp, things become a bit different when you are 'part of them', yet not 'part of them'.

I'm glad I given a chance to expose to so many things, and so many try and error. I think I will definitely benefited from this one fine day.

Systematic is a utopia we try to practice as a start up company, however people do expect a lot from us. I'm very proud actually, because of the capability of my co workers.As a start up, there's a lot of things, are done by per request/ favor/ help/ ad hoc. There's too many influence to disrupt the order. Oh no, there's no excuse in this industry. There's only hierarchy to follow. Do as follow.

Now only I understand once my ex manager told me about this during my first interview: ' Sometimes you have to learn how to say no.'

Problems occurs recently, work stuff, make me rethink the ways I used to deal with my problems. There's certain decision will be made by certain party, and that decision is a finalize answer. There's no doubt, no question, no discussion. Final answer.

Issue become so easy to solve last time, because no one will argue and demand, 'HE' says so, that's the final answer. I'm thankful I'm given such an environment to learn from mistake, crisis managment especially. Still far from perfect, but at least one step closer.

Got to step up straight, look up, speak in a firm voice. Do things wrong? Admit. Can't do it? NO.

Feel grateful? Thank you.