Mental abuse

I can't remember the last time I have fear towards people.
Mental abuse I almost can say so.

The feat that I have that whatever I do, I felt like idiot in front of you.
Whatever shit I say I have to think twice, to make myself sound less like a fool.

Maybe is not what you meant, but it's hard to see when we used to be ally and now become someone close to a stranger.

I should do something, but maybe I should clear my mind first.