Lover

10 Years after the last album, after 'Let go', they wanna continue the story to become 'Lover'.
As how they wowed me before, they wowed me again.

This is another song which is worth to listen for another 10 years. Much love to M-flo.
Verbal's music and lyrics, never fail to touch me. This time, he touches me as well.
  
 


今からどうやって

turn back the hands of time?
時計の針、逆 に回せたら rewind!

歯車が狂う前

今より数倍

会ってた分、説明は…

必要ない we could do this all night

語り倒す事だらけだったから

言い辛かったのは GOOD NIGHT

でも今では言う事ないから

「GOOD NIGHT」

First Q

There there....
First Q almost ended, and where we are today?

Work, lots of work.
Unfair treatment, people leaving, demands, improvement, being taken for granted...how mundane.
People chasing for crazy dateline, hiring, keep hiring... Never ending process.

I describe to a colleague the other day, problems are like...cancer.
It'll always be there. It can't be completely wipe out. But along the years as the cancer increase, it'll attack your immune system and collapse. Unsolved issues feels that way, it stuck in somewhere, stubborn and hard to remove.

Many people given me the same suggestion. But deep down I don't want to be seen like defeated because of those stubborn stain.

Pathetic isn't it? Everyone will have a worn out period, but mine is too soon in my view.
Met up with a senior on Friday night. Somehow I do miss the old days, and his too-late appreciation somehow make me feel grateful for being there for 1 and a half year.

I'm like a floating boat now, there's no direction, just let the wind take me.

All pictures credit from greenweddingshoes.com

Dream of headpiece yesterday night in my dream. Isn't she gorgeous!

Watched Django Unchained, FINALLY!

Splendid movie, well done Quantin Tarantino!
Compare to his previous movie Inglorious Bastards, this is more like what I love about him, his signature beauty violent. Glamorously portray blood and brutal, with a hint of humor.
His selection of music is brilliant! It suit the mood, but unlike normal Hollywood movie, even the music choice is humorous. 

Must watch! I will definitely watch a second time. 3 thumbs up!

Now, get back to work. On this beautiful Sunday.

Weird dream

Had a weirdest dream last night. It's so vivid and weird until I questioned myself whether I'm dreaming in my dream. In(ter)ception.

It' so so weird I can touch and feel every detail of the dream, like a movie. And the person I dream about is a most ridiculous person on earth.
I can even feel the weight (most probably is my dumpling pillow). And viola, I'm dead tired this morning coz my mind practically didn't rest at all.

*YAWN*

Teenage dream

Credit to greenweddingshoes.com

That day my girls colleagues are talking about their dream weddings. I'm surprised all of them have their dream weddings in their mind.

We're talking about pastel color themed, fish tail dress for wedding gown, what music to use, ceremonies...so girlish!

I never think of wedding, but I like to see wedding decor. Especially personalize one, each of the decor have their own stories from the couple, how amazing.

Gotten a few red bomb this year, two of them have spent quite some time with me during my college days. If not because of them, I would be less matured now.

Gosh, seeing them transform from guys to men. It's amazing.

Have a happily ever after marriage. God bless.

Self esteem

It's a norm I have very low self esteem, and I know why.
Since young I'm not the favorite child in the whole family, I'm not the favorite kids in the school, I'm just a normal nerd which people hardly notice about me.

I was fat, nerdy. ugly, wearing specs with pimples all over my face. I was the least cool kid in the secondary school, everyone hang out in the malls but I practice my chinese orchestra in the music room.

People enjoying bf time outside of the school, I'm the one either studying or practicing my instrument.
Never a cool kid, never have high self esteem.

Then things happen, I learn to look upwards.
Trying to worship something call 'Positive thinking', and it helps.
Look at myself a different way, try to change things, try to change the way I treat myself.

But something never change. I might be ok in front of most of the people, but deep inside I know my self esteem is still low.
Still the ugly duckling waiting to transform to a swan, but half way there.

I know how much I deserve. 

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Had so much fun in Bangkok!
Sadly tomorrow is the last day to stay in this beautiful place.
Good place, good food with fun people, awesome!

It's kinda unbelievable that I can still keep the bond with my ex colleagues, but they are not only my ex colleagues, they are my friends. My travel mate!

The good time and crazy shopping time are great, will definitely come back again, hopefully with the same people as well!

Random scary thoughts

Imma Bankok desu! With bunch of fun people, laughter and shopping all the way.

Went to swim this morning, and have some random scary thoughts.

'What if...what I imagined are all true?'
'How can I handle that?'
'How to deal with that?'
'Another round of battle?'

Holidays shouldn't come with lousy thoughts, I shall continue having fun.

Bai.

Enthusiasm

Somehow when I see some people in the office I still admire them a lot.
I can see passion, professionalism, hard working, some geeky ego, and more importantly they are amazing friendly people.

That's add up and equal to a place where I can claim 'a great work space'.

Eventually everything will pass one day, the toughest day will reach the end of the tunnel one day, the sun will swipe away the gloominess of the sky, spring shall come.

However we are different person now. I know.

Few months back I told myself, tough time will pass...will pass.
4 months now my dear, thanks for the toughness and lessons. One shall grow from learning, and learning from mistakes.

A bro keep nagging me a lot of times, be more alert, be mindful, remember this, not to forget that. It's good to have a family-like person to nag about your mistakes and carelessness. I didn't realize I'm darn mindless until people keep nagging me. This makes me extra guilty if I did something wrong.

Peaceful time will come, but storm will make us grow stronger.
Somehow I got inspired by the movie 'Lincoln'. Although he used many dirty tricks, bribery, soft and hard approach to buy his votes, but it's for a better future and a right thing.

Right thing is not necessary done by doing things right.

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Someone share with me an interesting idea. To feel happy can be both ways. To be happy by good things happen, or to feel happy naturally to make good things happen.

For me is chicken and egg story. It's a good idea, but how noble can one be, not affected by all shits happen around?
But it would be good if we can feel happy naturally, and good things will follow :)
Like I'm amazed by the light pink-purple sky this morning when preparing breakfast, splendid.

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Once in a while I still feel the pain, to remind myself for the time had pass me and the life lesson had failed me. But she's right, it'll pass, no matter how long it takes.