I'm gonna do this for once

I'm gonna do something really Bimbo and stupid to make a record for my life, for this period of time, when I'm heading 24 years old, I still doing something like this.

I always fancy about voice, I love to listen to deep, powerful, convincing voice.
I always fond of fingers too, long slim, clean cut and fair fingers.
I like looking at beautiful eyes, not the sissy kind, is eyes like deep blue sea; like how Suzzie Salmon describe her mother in Lovely Bones. Deep eyes, where you can see endless emotion in a pair of eyes. (And sometimes maybe with the help of eyeliner and smokey eyes).

Found the ideal look I want in guy. Just the look, and the eyes, and the lashes, and the eyes again, and the voice. OK I'm done.









Alrite, laugh as loud as you want!


My new fancy, TOP from Big Bang.




Funny name, funny korean thick make up boy band, but wait until you see him rapping.
I have no immune system towards rappers, especially cute good looking rapper with deep dimple.


OK, come laugh again.






I'm starting to do something really childish and weird, but it spice up my life.
It's like how I admire W-inds last time, early in the morning the daily dose is to watch their videos. Daily supplement is the music, and the rest of the day will be exceptionally good, good mood, good traffic, good smile~



Maybe in few weeks time I will not fancy him anymore, this post will serve as a prove for myself for childish act, for going back to 18 again.


Hello 18!

New Year Resolutions

1) To be a lovable girl. Do like how others do, how people can black faced but still lovable, and VERY lovable.

2) To be better driver, NOT to bang my car EVER again.

3) Buy myself something I really want, such as Camera, Curler, Starbucks mug, a pair of nais oxford, a really really nais purse, an expensive jeans, Iphone, something indulge...now you know what I mean? I can't even decide this myself?

4) Be proactive on work! Act before people, act fast, act smart!

5) Do more listening than talking.

6) Finish reading Stephen Covey's book. And apply.

7) Do something in my career which I can proudly say out loud. Something!

8) Send my parents money.

9) Start TRADING. I mean seriously, start.

10) Find treatment, solution, medicine for him.

11) Stand out before my boss. I'm still nobody in front of the boss. I need to grow, from a small potato.

12) Save another 15k for house.

13) Be grateful for life. Stop looking at others' pretty hair, pretty dress, shoes and bag.

14) Find my mentor for dinner, at least once.

15) Appreciate friendship, learn how to ask from people. Take more than give.


Ultimately, to be happy.

溃疡

嘴巴溃疡，心也溃疡了。
嘴里说不出好话，心里也不能压抑了。
呼。

雨天

我最爱的十二月怎么啦。。。好事呢？

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下雨了。。。而且还是一从巴士踏出来就下起倾盆大雨。
老天，不是那么幽默吧！

好，我认命。

雨越下越大，淋雨中也不那么好当。
雨水好冰。 TMD 电影都是骗人的！
为什么别人淋雨那么潇洒，我那么狼狈！
连内衣都湿透了真是的。

好不容易走进电梯，身上滴着水，脸上的妆大概也胡得七七八八了。
为了不要吓到人，我还是一本正经的，假装没事，很自在的站在电梯里。

估计后面两个男生一定是觉得我有问题。

这个时候，我只需要一把伞，和晚餐。

头疼，嘴巴溃疡。

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一流的十二月。

仙人掌也快死了，就是不舍得辜负别人把它带回来给我。
怎么办。。。

节日

佳节快来了！
浪漫的圣诞节，欢乐的跨年，喜洋洋的农历新年~
虽然，发生了一些衰过吃屎的事情，可是日子还是一样过，地球还是一样转。

参加了公司的圣诞派对。看看上面的图，难道你不认为没有拆开的礼物是最美好的吗？
花花绿绿的礼物纸，华丽丽的包装，大家都觉得包装最豪华的一定是最好的礼物。

才不是呢！

打开一看，不就是一堆不切实际的东西。
鸡肋骨，嚼之无味，弃之可惜。
到头来还不是把礼物再转送出去，或者下一年再拿出来交换。
这就是盲目的交换礼物的漏点。
哪里跑那么多有用，实际，又男女皆宜的礼物啊！

可是看见礼物堆满的时候还是很兴奋的。就是这个兴奋感还是值得的。

大家佳节都干吗呀？
单身的一定很闷，闷慌了，快快安排节目，免得佳节独自自怜。
没单身的一定预留自己的另一半，有没有节目就不得而知了。
出去，免不了就是大塞车。除非你有非凡的耐力，有多少人可以塞车可是不生气的。
不出去，就怎么都有点遗憾，总觉得要干些什么才行。

不干什么，也总要过得有意义。节日不就是为了过得有意义吗！

购物广场里的圣诞饰品都好豪华，整体上就是让你觉的无忧无虑，钱包饱满，随时可以大血拼。
实际上呢，老娘我撞了车，没有发花红，要缴倒霉到家的罚款，浪费了无数电话钱（我就是吝啬），车子要大修，还要麻烦这个，麻烦那个的帮忙我处理一些保险的事情，加上我的保险经纪不在吉隆坡，倒霉到家。
辛辛苦苦存来的钱，就这样莫名其妙的不见了。
天知道我多想痛快地买东西，辛苦存的血汗钱有多血汗。
连旅行我都不敢想，只能上网看看游记过瘾。
看着别人身上都穿着最新，最潮流的服饰，心里痒痒的还是要咬咬牙，告诉自己这些很快就过去了。
看着美美的化妆品，护肤品，天啊。。。我要钱！
我要去痛快地剪一个`很`贵的发型，很奢侈的给专人染头发，做一做很贵妇的treatment!做一个很可爱的美甲，把脚甲也做得blingbling的 (噢是虚荣，怎样！老娘就是肤浅）~



看到别的美女穿得漂漂亮亮地，妆化得美美的，全身上下穿着都是最新最流行的衣服饰品。
老娘可以不羡慕吗你说啊！往死里羡慕的说。
可是还可以自我麻醉，本小姐走的是不一样的风格。
什么风格啊，颓废风啊，成熟步入老年不打扮风吗？



倒霉了就是钱包空虚了。钱包空虚也要买礼物，也要还人情，重点是三万要还。

钱是少了，屋子还是要买。我要买买买买！！！！

TMD 屋价越来越贵，货币越来越贬。你说要多多少血汗？
女孩子的青春，就那短短几年。尤其我的青春来得迟，就那么几年。等到屋子买成了，我就只有屋子了。青春早都包二奶去了！

新的一年快来了，希望真的迎新送旧，把不好的都留下。

新年的新希望，请给我多一点耐力，带走我无止尽的欲望/给我无止尽的金钱花（拜托，选后者）。谢谢。

I'm so sorry!

Dear car car,

I still regretting over the incident happened, believe it or not.
I dunno why I can't stop you that day, donno why the car in front stopped suddenly.
Don't know why I went into this situation.

I have to pay for the price, for...not able to break on time.
Pay for summon, for car repair, for police report, for phone bills.

I promise you, I will drive more carefully.
My new year resolution is to be a better driver!

My dear car, please serve me for few more years, be my trusty car and I want to confess to you; I really like you!!!!

Love,
Your lousy owner,

on 10

I've made a serious mistake yesterday.
Made a horrible phone call and resulted my sulky mood and mom's precious tear.
I swear I'll never make her cry again, NEVER.

Really hard to express the feeling when hearing the other end with a voice with full of disappointment, it's heart breaking.
It's not as serious as you think, but I will never make the same mistake ever again, ****ing regret.

Count to 10 when angry. Don't talk when angry. Try to swallow the anger when angry.
Don't argue when the other party accusing you. Ignore the flame when heart is breaking.

To anyone of you who cannot do all the above, feel grateful for having tolerate people around you.

My mood is exactly like the weather now. Sulky.