Changes

My life have been moving nowhere lately.

I always want to move forward, try something new, do something different.

But my life is getting nowhere lately. Repeating the routine I am, bitching the same thing, and continue.

I need a change perhaps. Very depressed today.

I'm a bitch who can't live without attention and companion.
Sick.

I need a improvement, a freaking change.
Need to learn how to be more charismatic, more attractive, adorable, more like a girl i reckon.

I need to be loved!

Wish List

As title:

1) New handphone, can touch touch the screen one, can take awesome picture in silence.
2) Camera. I don't even have one now!!
3) New Hand bag. I know I have many already, but I still using the same one Shee Hoong gave me on my 21st birthday. I <3 the current one, but it is too big for office.
4) I need a new pillow case urghh.
5) Tint my car.
6) New jeans, color contact lens, hair cut.
7) A house. In K.L. Here.

OK, no more dreaming...get back to work.

Thankiu. Xie xie.

Liverpool Maniac

It's been a year now, away from our dream, our hardship in doing assignments, times we dig into the books in library, book hunting for the best book, borrow DVDs from library for movie marathon, night walk to Albert Dock, British breakfast cooking, dinner cooking after afternoon nap, Liverpool One window shopping, Eating out once in a while, Lobster Pot Lunch, carrying heavy groceries from Tesco, running to the 'Reduced price' section to look for cheaper food, happily waloop 1 pound strawberries and grapes,9 pence yogurt, 1.24 pounds Shandy, and BEERS!....

Looking back the old days, it still stay fresh in our memories, these memories are irreplaceable.

First time I cried so bad over my results is in Liverpool. The feeling of hatred over myself is indescribable. Without fail, I gotten a pretty bad result, that's the only thing I regretted in Liverpool. Other than this, many many first time experience in Liverpool. The first time I walk into a real cathedral, firs time speaking to ang moh, first time looking at LFC, first time

It's summer 2010 now, looking at the juniors pictures, their excitement and enthusiast are exactly the same as ours.
Their posing, the pictures, the scenery...everything are so familiar, except we are not in the picture itself.

The memories starts flooding in my mind after seeing the pictures in FB. I never been missing my hostel so much, I can even smells my room in my dream!

I miss Liverpool that much, I don't even know I can miss the place so so much.
Please send my regards to the place we spent so much time with.

H.E.L.L.O L.I.V.E.R.P.O.O.L!!!!!

Air Asia's fault!

A & B is going to Bali
C & D is going to Phuket
E & F is going to Perth
G & H is booking for Krabi

Me feeling crappy.

LOL (pun intended)

Well, Tony Fernandas new trick,causing the huge jam in AirAsia home page. I guess maybe because of person like me, who have no planning on travel, just to check out the price.

I so wanna to travel! To HK, Taiwan, Aussie, UK!!!! The ticket is cheap cheap cheap.
Perhaps I should consider to change my phone first?
My phone is giving me big time recently, it started to load slower than my grandma walking.

Anyway...

This is a very wu liao post, just to vent thing out of my mind.
I can't stop refreshing the red color page with bees buzzing.
I just wanna go! Even if just East Malaysia!!

My bf turn his blog into football blog

As title, he turned his blog into football blog, precisely, Liverpool FC blog.
I guess the 10 years of passion is unbeatable.
http://www.darkshadowjt.blogspot.com/

I asked him, why you never write about me?

I guess coz he dun wanna walk alone with me, he want to walk with LFC.

I love my job

Due to my work scope, website seeking is part of my work, and it definitely open up my eyes to many good websites.

Although I need to entertain many low quality sites (like mine), and I need to dig back my Malay from my memory bank to reply mail, but I realize how big actually this community are in Malaysia. Many of them, treat their website/ blog as their main income. For some might work, but that's the minority of them.

Yesterday I encountered a few very good blog I can't keep to myself and must share to you all.


Edmond Yeo's blog
http://swiftywriting.blogspot.com/

This blogger very much relate to us, because he's a young film maker, and he made few short films which won him several awards. He's not based in Japan, and his short film very much adapt to Japanese movie style.
He's fortunate enough to study master in Japan, shoot several short films, went for a few film fest, but I know there's hard blood and tears behind his success. So proud of him as a Malaysian.

He shares some of his opinion as a film student. Funny enough, he is a typical chinese, who don't really encourage people to be in this production line. Probably he taste the bitterness himself, and he knows how important it is to be realistic, recognize the hardship.

He is dealing with the hardship, chasing his dream.
Totally salute this dude, and I hope he'll become another Yasmin Ahmad here.


E-HAN
http://hytehan.blogspot.com/

This is a Chinese base music/ fashion blog which I really like (Sorree to all the non-chinese readers >..<). The music genre he shares are top in quality, and he listens to Wide range of MUSICS.
The reviews of the songs I agree most of them, and he is very up to date in music and fashion.
Wonder how this guy look like...hmm..
Strongly recommended! <3


I really hope that chinese website community will open up more to advertisement. They are too protective and which explains they have good content and quality on web layout (no zap ba lang pornographic advert! )

Comparison

'Comparison is easily done when you have a taste of perfection', Katy Perry told me.

I said, 'Comparison is easily done, when you have no perfection.'

Katy said 'If we ever meet again...'


I guess people nowadays have chance to open up, to see more things, to enjoy luxury, to experience more, to desire more.
Therefore causing people always craves for more.
More money, more entertainment, more happiness, more friends, more exposure, everything wants more, except hardship.

People are greedy, I admit.
We never stop looking for more, wanting more, expecting more.

Once I thought I had the best, once I thought I regreted.
I heard stories from everyone, I make my own stories.
Comparison is so easily done, when you have to listen to all sorts of stories.

I guess people are more easily to satisfy when they don't get more, when they get merely enough.

The thing is, not the worst, but it's bad compare to others; It's not the best, but not good enough. Paradoxy.

Less is more? More is less?

What is norms? What is things 'suppose to be? suppose to do?'
How do I look when I 'suppose to be like every other girls?'
How would I be when I 'am everybody?'
What would you do, when I am the 'everybody girl'?
Will you be the same?


I hope things will get better. There's no staying at the starting point, it's either moving forward, or you find yourself at the junk, being like one.

Perhaps I just want an ordinary one. Plus an extra.